I know I got my problems.
Like, A LOT OF PROBLEMS.
Both of my ankles are broken,
My spine is fucking distort,
And maybe I need some mental treatment.
But I know all these shits myself.
Come on, I mean I'm the one with those problems.
Don't talk to me like I fucking want them to happen.
You thought I like it?
You really thought I am happy about what's happening to me?
NO I DON'T.
I HATE MYSELF BEING LIKE THIS.
But it all happened, I can't freaking stop or change shits.
I ain't fucking psychic, I can't control shits with my mind.
I have no superpowers, I can't bend time and space.
Don't tell me I didn't fucking take good care of myself.
That's bullshit.
You didn't live with me, you don't even know what the hell I would be doing when I am all alone.
You thought you know about me.
But the truth is you don't.
You only know that "Me" I wanted you to know.
And trust me, you will never wanted to know who I really am.
YOU CAN'T HANDLE IT.
You only know what happened to me, you don't know how they actually happened.
Don't judge me like that.
I know you wouldn't like people judge you either, so I never judge.
So don't talk to me like you know how painful it is.
I don't give a hoot.
Don't come in front of me and tell me this is how you fucking care about me.
BUT NO, THANK YOU.
I will not appreciate people who care about me with this kind of attitude.
WTF dude?
Did you even realize that you are talking to me like you are the one who is living my life?
LIKE SERIOUSLY?
You can do anything and say anything you wanted to, I won't care.
But you don't come in front of me and judge my family and you don't come in front of me and tell me how to live MY FUCKING PATHETIC LIFE!
Even if you are my mum today,
EVEN IF YOU ARE MY MUM TODAY!
I would just flip the table all over if you try to alter MY LIFE!
THIS IS INTOLERABLE.
I told you what happened to me all because I trusted you, I take you as my friend. you got a place deep inside of my soul.
So PLEASE!
At least I mean fucking AT LEAST, give me a little bit respect that I deserved.
I won't tell you shit about me If I don't take you as a part of my life!
And all you see me is a FUCKING PIECE OF DEAD CORPSE WITHOUT A SOUL!
Thank you for being caring,
Thank you for being so lovely.
But I am so sorry that this doesn't work on me.
I know you care,
But this isn't the way I would appreciate.
You could say I'm not grateful I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.
I just felt so disrespect when a people I trust and thought who is worthy actually did all these and said all these shits to me.
First, It broke my heart.
Second, It fucking pissed me off.
Did you ever saw me scolding anyone just because they fucking done some shits in their life?
NO OF COURSE YOU DIDN'T BECAUSE I WON'T!
Because I know this is not how it is suppose to be.
You really think people are happy with it when shits got into their life?
Yet blaming is all they need when they are so fragile that might die?
What the fuck is this?!
Oh you gotta be FUCKING KIDDING ME.
Look, you don't care a person by blaming them and throwing shit words to them.
This is not what they need!
THIS WILL NEVER FUCKING HELP.
THIS WILL ONLY FUCKING MAKE THINGS WORSE!
Don't tell me that you are this kind of person.
NO I DON'T GIVE A HOOT, SON!
No matter how a person you are today.
Blaming is the best way to worsen a person life when they need help and they are crying for help deep inside.
You might see him smiling and laughing at you blaming today.
But you might see him dead in his apartment tomorrow.
STOP FUCKING BEING SO FUCKING INCONSIDERATE!
It doesn't matter how close you are with a person today,
you need to know how people would felt with what came out from your mouth.
FUCK ME.
